I’m losing my patience today. Actually, I’ve lost it. Its gone. I can’t find it and you know what? I’m not even gonna look for it. If I don’t sit down right now, I know one more thing will happen and I’ll be pushed over the edge today. I know the saying goes, “God only gives you what you can handle.” Well, guess what? I can’t handle MY DOG anymore. Beau is driving. me. up. a. WALL. He adds so much un-needed stress to my day and I seriously need him out of here. In fact, so much so, I put him outside this morning and shut the door. Yep, I did. I shut the door. He stood there and I went upstairs to put Roman’s clean quilt on his bed. Then, I ran the vacuum on the 2nd floor. Rocco let him in. Lucky dog, he knew I had no plans of doing such a thing. I think people just think I’m kidding about needing to find another home for this dog but I’m not! Oh trust me, I’m not kidding. You see, as if you don’t know this: Our patience as mothers is already tested on on day to day basis with our children. In my case, one that entered the ‘Terrible Twos’ and another who is exiting the ‘Terrible Three’s’ and entering into the ‘I found my attitude’ stage. Its amazing, I’m obsessed with my kids, but they absolutely test me and my patience at least once per day. Now add my DOG to the craziness of 1046 and its enough to make me want to punch a hole in the wall (and then eat a couple candy bars).
So this is a glimpse of what happened. The other day, I bought BRAND NEW outdoor deck cushions for our long glider and rocking chairs. NEW. BRAND NEW. Haven’t had new cushions in years. What’s my stupid dog do? CRISTEN them by PEEING ON 4 of the 6 cushions. All I had to do was look at him and he ran faster than I could blink under the couch to where I could not reach him. I only fed him, gave him water, had him groomed yesterday, and let him out THREE TIMES this morning before the incident went down. I really almost threw him down the steps. I thought to myself, ‘we need fresh air’ – So, I cleaned the cushions and floor and took the boys outside. After breathing and having a little fun play-time with my kiddos, it was time to go in for lunch. I opened the basement door and Beau JUMPED onto Roman causing him to fall back and hit his back on the side of the door. Now I really want to beat this dog BAD. 15 minutes later – Lunch Time: Rocco dropped 1/2 of a 1/2 of his sandwich and Beau snatches it up gobbling it down his throat. I want to kick him. Stupid dog has fresh food AND water! What the heck! Fast forward to Nap Time: 2 solicitors rang my door bell and Beau went berserk! Honest to goodness, I don’t know who to hit. The dog? or The solicitors? I even have a SIGN on my door! Roman got OUT of his bedroom to see what was going on. And finally, when all is settled, a bird flew by the sun-room window (You know, because that’s what birds do. They fly outside in the sky.) It sent Beau in an absolute frenzy and I just couldn’t handle him. Not for one more minute. He will officially stay in the basement until Brian gets home.
I sent Brian a text message and told him he has 2 options: 1. Take Beau to work with him EVERY day. 2. Find another home for Beau. I’m waiting for his decision to be made. Otherwise, if he doesn’t want to make a decision, this is mine: I have decided that I’m purchasing a large cage, putting toys, food and water in the cage, and Beau will spend the day in the cage, in the basement while I’m at work. Because YES, being a stay at home mother and homemaker is WORK. Its my work day and I’m firing Beau from being in my workplace. So before I leave you to decompress with a little YOGA time, I’ll leave you with some lyrics to my new favorite ‘God’ song by Jon Foreman. Its speaking to me lately and I love it.
I repeat these words over and over to myself all day long and firmly believe the last line.
Two things you told me
That you are strong
and you love me.
So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need.
Click this link to listen to my new favorite song:
NOW TAKE A DEEP BREATH WITH ME… I’m ready to find my Patience now (especially since Beau is nowhere in sight for me to lose it again)
PS. Ever had a day like this?